the photos above were taken this past november in oahu on kodak film.
i’m switching my business and my passion back to film this year. slowly.
and it scares me.
business wise it means a greater financial investment back into my practice. but that isn’t what has me worried. and it’s not even the concern that the world may not be able to tell the difference between an instagram filter and film. it’s that people might see something a little more raw, less saturated or rather, less vivid and consider it lesser quality compared to the hd/blu ray world we now live in.
photography for me has always been the attempt of capturing a future memory. moments. to take something of the world we live in and create a living-image of the visuals in our minds. but my memories have never been crystal clear vivid images. reflecting over specific times, peoples beauty reaches new heights that cannot be described with hard lines but with strokes of a paint brush where flaws or pores are forgotten in a haze. almost like a vivid dream where peoples definitive looks tend to not exist after we wake up. i’ve never had someone ask me to describe cloud for color what a sunset looked like. we tend to find a lot of beauty in what is left out. that missing part of the story that super charges us with curiosity. that lack of clarity that makes us want to focus closer. a human trait that we may be losing.
the world is changing. probably for the better. new solutions to every aspect of our lives show up every day, making life easier and faster. but somewhere in all of it, the demand for bigger, brighter, more detailed images keeps growing too. whether it’s high definition or 3d, the world is asking for something bigger than the life we see around us and clearer than the visuals in our minds.
films greatest strength may be in it’s most obvious weakness.
it lacks something. it is almost as if something is missing from the visual when looking upon them. like someones put a thin veil between you and what you are viewing.
it looks like my memories.
so much of photography is about searching for life lived and capturing it to be cherished for future use. the moment needed to be held onto for a little longer than it actually existed, so you took a part of it with you. digital photography has made this so conflicting. you now take a picture and you review it immediately. this seems to have brought photography into a new realm. where we once captured for future use, we now capture to check off the list of life lived. we are losing the ability to submerse ourselves into the moments infront of us as taking a digital image and having it in palm has a disassociating effect to what we are currently in. how we remember life is a bizarre and inconsistant thing. we add things, we remove a lot, rearrange and dramatize. digital has the ability to keep everything as it was and virtually suck the romance out of that experience.
there isn’t a specific purpose for writing this.
and this isn’t supposed to be an attack on digital. i shoot digital. it has it’s place in the world, especially in the commercial/produced side of visuals. this is more so regarding the life we live day to day. but this isn’t even about telling people to stop taking digital pictures much less to tell anyone they need to start shooting film again. it’s sort of being done to console myself.
the world i live in seems to have a dream like quality to it. i think digital is trying to remind me of a more literal side to what is out there. but so much of what is inside of me says to close my eyes and know then that what i see is the world i want to be in, open my eyes, and keep walking forward.
*color photos shot on a canon 1v + contax t2 with kodak portra
**black and white photos on a canon 1v with ilford xp2